Sometimes life just not feel like real you know. With all the crowded, hectic, fun, loving, romantic, sad, inspring, musical and everything… sometimes it feels more like….a dream. a very sweet dream. and a colorful one, I think. 🙂
Right now, I’m feeling so very thankful for my life. For every part inside my life. the troubles, the joy, the surprises– practically everything.
I value my besties even more, for i wont go through ten thousand things without them here. So thanks Jude, Aloii, Bom, Rin, Dee, Tyaz… and u, Vin (for showing me what friendship could do across the ocean. There are a lot of things I havent yet tell you, some uncertainty, more joyful stories, but in short, i’m thankful for what we have as bestfriends, and ocean was never a barrier. Be good out there, pal).
I learn that not everything works the way I want them to be. But God provided everything I need and surprises beyond what i asked. I learn, that when I forced it my way, i hurt too deep. when I let Him guide, i still hurt myself, but those hurt shaped me into a better girl, a better friend, a better girlfriend, a better me,
I’m even more thankful for A. for his patience, for his unremarkable maturity, for his touch, and for his weakness. His imperfect side teach me of an almost perfect love. His presence reminds me of a surprise God gave me 2,5 years ago, when I almost can not see any hope. And like an angel he came. 😉
It’s been so crowded and hectic at college. task after task and assignments after assignments, it’s an endless stream this semester. But i must say i’m enjoying the process. very much. I’ve got like 10 classes this semester and even things don’t look so very good, i have this good feeling that everything is gonna be alright.
Where that kind of peace came from? I don’t know. 🙂
Oh, and I’d like to share some good songs I’ve been listening to lately.. these music have been accompanying me along longest hours of internet surfing, scientific journal searching, photo editing, blogging and all, might good for you to listen to them:
1. Beautiful by Eminem
this is a very good song. his words are amazingly close to our everyday thing in life…
“Lately I’ve been hard to reach I’ve been too long on my own…
But you have to walk a thousand miles in my shoes, just to see
What it’s like to be me, I’ll be you, let’s trade shoes
Just to see what it’d be like to
Feel your pain, you feel mine
Go inside each other’s mind
Just to see what we find
Look at shit through each other’s eyes
But don’t let ’em say you ain’t beautiful….“
2. Broken Vow by Lara Fabian
Most of you perhaps familiar with Josh Groban’s version of this song. But I want you guys to try to listen to Lara’s gentle and powerful voice, and the music was so majestically luxurious and rich. so please go and listen to her voice. Despite the original meaning, I personally like the words in the chorus part. If you ignore the original meaning of the song, you probably find these words are applicable to other things you see in life.
“l’ll let you go
I’ll let you fly
Why do I keep asking why
I’ll let you go
Now that I found
A way to keep somehow
More than a broken vow”
i think somewhere in the song, she (and Groban too, of course. I love him!) also sang this,
“I close my eyes
And dream of you and I
And then I realize
There’s more to life than only bitterness and lies…“
3. Gentlemen Dont by Gabe Bondoc
I don’t know folks. Have you listen to his song? He’s very good. Both the piano and accoustic version of this song is really good. His music and words is so simple. really really simple. Maybe it’s just his way to touch us. By his simplicity.
“I’m just a simple man, simple plans,
Good work, take care of my fam,
I’m sure you understand
Because you’re heaven sent, independent,
Do you think you need me?
…But I know very well
Gentlemen don’t kiss and tell”
4. Accidentally In Love by Counting Crows
Oh this is such an old song… xD the song was popular since it became Shrek movie theme song. the song is really really cheerful, and it reminded me of honestly, purely and accidentally falling in love. the lyric is touching in one side, honest and naive in the other side. A very good song. I love this song!
“…What’s the problem I don’t know
Well maybe I’m in love, think about it every time
I think about it, can’t stop thinking ’bout it
…Come on, come on
Turn a little faster
Come on, come on
The world will follow after
Come on, come on
Because everybody’s after love….
….Mean we’re never alone
Never alone, no, no…
…accidentally in love…”
5. Right to Dream by Mariah Carey
too good, too precisely describing me. enough said.
I love ya Carey.
“I lay awake sometimes
Scared to close my eyes
And I wonder where I left myself
I lost the will to fly
Somewhere deep inside
Someone strong still resides
And I know she’s gonna be fine
‘Cause you see
I’ve got a lot to dream
There’s more than this for me
An angel lands with broken wings
Warms me with his eyes
…See I grew up locked in sorrow
So I learned to block the pain
But I won’t give up tomorrow“
strange. I’ve been listening to hip hop and RnB last month. Now here i am stumbled with another 5 mellow songs. 🙂 But i like them all.
ow, Happy Independence Day Indonesia. I hope things will turn out good for the nation.
see you all around folks…